Lately, I've been riding out what I like to call my "life high"; by "life High" I mean everything has been pretty great. School has been getting a little more tough, but I enjoy the fight. I've had the opportunity to see my best friends three times within the last four weeks. I've picked up my guitar again and have been experimenting with sounds and songs, which feels so amazing. Overall, I really can't complain. Honestly, I thought the last few weeks were going to be absolute hell, considering the types of change I've had to adjust to. But really, things haven't been bad.
If you know me, you know that there is one rule - I guess you can say - that I have for myself and that I share with others if they ask me for advice: Always allow yourself to feel and embrace every single emotion, whether it be good or bad. And with the more negative emotions, give yourself a certain amount of time to feel that way, and then let it go.
I think the reason why I'm writing this blog is not only to pass that thought on to other people, but to also embrace and let go of the weird feeling I've had the past two days. I'm not sad or angry, I've just felt off. Dull, maybe? But most certainly not as upbeat as usual. I've been relearning how to become a much more independent person, and I think I've been mixing that with relying on other things in order to avoid this 'dull' feeling I always knew was still hiding somewhere inside of me...which totally defeats the purpose of what I've said before. Maybe I just felt like I didn't need to feel low because everything from the outside was so awesome. Alas, I can no longer suppress this feeling.
With every 'high', there is always going to be a 'low'. This is my low. And I'm okay with that. I'm finally allowing myself to be brave, take time to relax, and let it all pass. I know that after this, there will be another 'high', and life will continue to be amazing and beautiful.
Cheers, x
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