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I'm a liar. I said I'd have a video up and that I would blog everyday, and noooooooow what's happened??

But have no fear! I'm not far behind on this. I have the video uploaded on private so all I need to do is edit the description and make it live. Maybe that'll be done tomorrow. I feel like the more I put it off, the more I'm going to think about how ridiculous I am in the video. But really, what do I care! I enjoy making and editing videos, and if I plan on getting back into the groove of things, I can't be a sissy about things like this. Another reason I haven't been posting vlogs and such is because I'm still stuck in these glasses. Fingers crossed, I get my contacts tomorrow morning. I really hope so.

I think the main reason why I've been so iffy about writing blogs or talking to a lot of people this past week is because I've recently had this idea that if I do anything wrong (even in the smallest of ways), I'm going to jinx myself. I constantly feel like I'm walking on eggshells while I'm making decisions so as to avoid anything going wrong.  With every step forward, I feel like I'm also taking two steps back. All I can do at this point is continue praying that things are happening for a reason and what's meant to happen will happen. I'm being tested and I intend on passing this test with flying colors.

On a much lighter note, I started walking without my boot today. It may not seem like much, but being able to walk from my bed to the kitchen and all around my house made me kinda emotional this morning. When I walk my ankle gets a little stiff after a while and the muscles in my leg get tired really easily since all of the muscle is gone, but I can't complain one bit. I'm proud of myself for pushing to get better, but I'm even more proud of the fact that I didn't push myself too quickly. I tend to rush things (especially healing during injuries) because I like to get things done so I don't miss out on anything. But during this healing process, I've really taught myself how to take it easy and just take all the time I need to completely heal.


I really hope things continue going uphill from here.

Hmm...

Trying to stay positive even when I'm at my breaking point. And that's what's important....right?