Wednesday

It's wednesday and i FORGOT to post yesterday. :[ no one probably reads my blogs so this is kinda for my own sake. I'm trying this new thing where i start something and i promise myself to finish it.

anywayssssss, i don't remember too much of yesterday. i remember it was cold and it rained. and i had chinese food for lunch and it was good. i got 4 hours of sleep.
today, the weather was gorgeous and i had fun in dance.

there's just one thing that i've noticed that i do alot everyday. every few minutes or so i stop and zone out. i begin thinking about everything that's going on, whether it's good or bad. recently, though, i've been focusing on one thing that bothers me. it gives me that empty feeling in my chest and makes my stomach turn a little. it's something i shouldn't try to change, but rather, let take it's own course. whatever happens in this situation happens and i know that i've tried my best in the past to fix it.
but i'm tired of fixing things and i'm tired of being the only one who seems to care if it gets fixed or not.
i want to focus on good things. there are many good things happening in my life right now but it's all forgotten in those few moments when i remember that there's a burden over my shoulder.


tomorrow's a new day, and i'm going to take advantage of it.